When you do Naam/paath, if it is done with anger in your mind , then take it that Kroodh has taken all your kumai, if you are doing paath and your are having naughty thoughts, then take it that Kaam has taken whatever simran you have done. On a side issue, when you are making roti or sabzi or any food, the state of your mind has an effect on the way the food is made. You may have noticed sometimes you make tea and for no reason it tastes delicious, you make it the same way later on and it tastes not so good, again this has a lot to do with the state of your mind. Lets take it a step further, when you do sewa, the state of your mind has a direct result in what type of phall (good karma) you get. If you perform sewa with a desire in mind then you will achieve that goal, it may take a while but sewa is always fruitful, but you have not taken any steps closer to Guru Ji, your sewa bore fruit but you have remained stationary. So when doing sewa it needs to be done without a particular goal in mind, infact the only goal in your mind should be Guru Ji’s piyaar.
If you are not “Guru-wallay”, that is, if you have no Guru then when you die and you have to transverse the divide to Dharam Rajas court, if you have no protection (of your Guru) then along the way there are many many lost souls who have no where to go and the only way they survive is by ‘robbing’ Naam off newly deceased people, and if after they have robbed you and you have nothing then you may also end up joining their band. However, if you have the protection of Guru Gobind Singh Ji then you have no fear, then these praites/dhoots cannot touch you.
Within us we have a platform, on one side there are the good, on the other there are the Bad. As long as the bad five have control of the platform (mind) them it will always veer off to the negative aspects of life. By doing Naam Simran the Good five get stronger and start to take control of the mind. This is when the mind starts to move towards the state of Sehaj.
This is the crux of the matter, we have a constant battle with the Five. Just as there are the five chore we also have the five Sant within us as well – Sat (Truth) , Santokh (contentment) , Dhaya (compassion) , Nimrta (humility) and piyar (love) but because we do so many bad things these five are very weak and the other lot are very strong, which is the reason why our mind is always steered towards bad things in life.
The Catholic Church is very big on Confession. It is little known that confession is very good for the atma and we as Sikhs do not use this enough. We are all “Bhoolan-haar”, that is we all make mistakes, all of the time, there is no shame in this because as humans that is what we do and Guru Ji knows this. But the knack is how to “bakshah” our mistakes. Every morning when we have completed our Naam and within the ardaas we should quite openly speak out all our mistakes we made the day before.
Again, Akaal Purkh knows everything so even if you do not speak out, He knows. BUT to get the mistakes “bakshahed” or forgiven we must lay them out open and ask for forgiveness. So say “AkaalPurkh Ji yesterday I did many things, I became angry at person X, I did nindhia of person Y, I had bad thoughts about person Z please forgive all my mistakes, even the ones I am not aware of.” The amazing thing is, AkaalPurkh is all loving, all forgiving, no matter how many mistakes we make, as long as we are genuine about asking forgiveness then, those mistakes are cleared of our Karm slate. This way we accumulate less karam, because we are getting them forgiven as we go along. Very much like a confessional, but without a go-between, you speak directly to your father.